Tuesday, November 13, 2007
The first post is always the worst.
Anyway, I created this account on the 13th of November 2007 because I'm due to leave the country on the 26th of December. However, the reason for my departure is not exactly as sinister as it sounds. I am no fugitive, have killed no one and the worst crime I probably have done in the eyes of the law will probably be downloading manga and songs illegally or jay walking. I doubt they evict people out of the country for that though.
I have accepted a scholarship to resume my studies in Singapore.
I feel so strange saying that. For one thing, I am only FIFTEEN and I expected to spend at least another two years in Malaysia before skipping off overseas. The thing is, once I step on Singapore land, I doubt I'd be returning. Of course, coming back for the holidays and all is a necessity. However, if I do not manage to cope in Xinmin, I would still have to remain in Singapore - as its syllabus is remarkably different than of Malaysia's; the only difference is that the schooling fees would be paid from my parents' very own pockets. (or bank account) And I sincerely doubt they could afford it.
So its do or die.
When I was contemplating the scholarship, weighing my pros and cons; I almost panicked. After all, if I refuse - I might never get a chance to take up a scholarship to Singapore again. Even though I never actually intended to study there in the first place, it's still a somewhat threatening thought. I felt so nervous, thinking of all the opportunities I have at my reach and the problems I might face. I was in a complete Dilemma. (somehow, the stuff they taught us for Civics didn't help either. for those who don't know what I'm talking about, flip through our Form One text book)
I had already planned what I would do in the coming two years. (Rough draft) It would be as follows:
Form 4
Join:
Choir
English Society
Christian Fellowship
Wudo
Debate
Drama
(and try to become the President of at least one club the next year)
AND take up at least 12 subjects. - JPA scholars have to have a min of 12A1s along with other curricular stuff
Form 5
see above
(get 12A1s!!!!!)
- apply for scholarships to any college/fund/firm possible
Post SPM
- venture off overseas
It might not seem like much but it was something that I aspired to. Now that I have the ASEAN scholarship, I guess I have to strive towards ANOTHER scholarship that would pay for my college. I'm not sure if this means that I will be behind my friends in studies or not. After all, they would finish their Form 5 the same time I finish Sect 4. Although I will be directly heading off to JC, it's still a little longer than the Malaysian students will be doing.
And I'm also worried about the OTHER scholarship and the competition from other Singaporeans. Mrs. Lim had said that companies will put scholars instead of normal students first. However, I feel that Singaporeans will still be their first priority. All I can do is try to overcome whatever obstacles I might face. In fact, I'm also feeling nervous about the dormitory and stuff. Dorm mates, Room mates, Class mates, studying environment, stress, peer pressure, sickness. Whatever is it, you name it; I've already noted and am preparing myself emotionally for.
Yeah, if you can't tell already, I worry entirely too much. It's a habit, really.
I will also miss all my friends very, very much.
For instance, I've known Ivan for 11 years of my life - and we're parting. (He didn't even come for the last day of school, what a friend.) And Shuk, who I've been close friends with since we were eight. Wei Ann with her idiocy. Khye Chwin, the forum slave. Mei Yin and her inability to speak long words without messing it up (phisolophy indeed). Kar Yee and her soft yet squeaky, girlish voice. Jie Ying and her St.John duties. Omar and his freaky laughter. Bryan and his. Well, himself. Marcus talking about Gunz and how much a pro he was. Keith and the fact that he'll probably tower even more over me.
Really, I must stop before I get even more sentimental.
Subjects I'll probably be taking up:
English
Mother Tongue (Malay / Higher Malay) (no escape!!!!)
Elementary Mathematics
Additional Mathematics (hell awaits...!)
Physics
Chemistry
Biology (triple Science!!! oh noes!)
Combined Humanities (not sure what it comprises of...)
English Literature ("To kill a mockingbird" - in Sec 3, Midsummer's Night Dream - Sec 4, Mining for Meaning - Unseen Text for Sec 3 & 4)
Visit for more perspectives:
http://markeleven.blogspot.com/2007/01/is-singapore-scamming-malaysians-with.html
and here
http://educationmalaysia.blogspot.com/2007/01/asean-scholarship-lifes-experience.html
and here
http://educationmalaysia.blogspot.com/2005/12/seeking-singapore-education.html
and here
http://xangelcharl.blogspot.com/2007/01/asean-scholarship-would-you-do-it-all.html
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