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Female. 17. Someone who needs this blog because - I don't always say what I mean and I don't always mean what I say. And here I let it all out. Living life and loving it. <3

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Cute eh?
http://www.worryvsdonuts.com/?p=82

I just noticed that there's so many pieces of me floating about in cyberspace. In fact, a mere google search on my name and lots of things just... appear. Forums that I used to participate in, websites where I was foolish enough to use my actual name.

And so, I'm going to list all my previous blogs; parts of my life on the net here.
2nd March 2005 - 28th July 2006 :http://rebecca-c.livejournal.com/
27th May 2006 -12th November 2006 :http://silv-r-orb.livejournal.com
26th January 2007 - 21st September 2007:http://ex0plain0nation.livejournal.com/ (least updated)

I just feel so... full. I wonder if one day I might be able to publish my 'journals' after polishing them... I'm so glad that I left something of myself in this life. I'd be horrified should I die without leaving a mark on the world. It makes our existence so insignificant and pointless. I guess there's where religion comes in, but I just can't stop believing that God created us to do something big for Him. Perhaps the book I will write in future will help in His work.

This also reminds me on how I feel about my family and religion. It's just all so messy and wrong. I asked my sister whether she was afraid to go to hell just the other day, and she scoffed at me. SCOFFED! And she said she was a Christian purely because my mother was. All that thinking about afterlife and redemption really makes me feel sick to my stomach, especially when I know how imperfect I must be and also about facing my friends and family after death. Will we be in heaven or will we be in hell? Will it be my fault? Which is why I try not to think of such depressing matters. But I do realise that one day I really must spend some time on the subject.

I can think of a thousand things I want to say. But I only can think of few ways to say it.

Strange.

3:07 AM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Cute eh?
http://www.worryvsdonuts.com/?p=82

I just noticed that there's so many pieces of me floating about in cyberspace. In fact, a mere google search on my name and lots of things just... appear. Forums that I used to participate in, websites where I was foolish enough to use my actual name.

And so, I'm going to list all my previous blogs; parts of my life on the net here.
2nd March 2005 - 28th July 2006 :http://rebecca-c.livejournal.com/
27th May 2006 -12th November 2006 :http://silv-r-orb.livejournal.com
26th January 2007 - 21st September 2007:http://ex0plain0nation.livejournal.com/ (least updated)

I just feel so... full. I wonder if one day I might be able to publish my 'journals' after polishing them... I'm so glad that I left something of myself in this life. I'd be horrified should I die without leaving a mark on the world. It makes our existence so insignificant and pointless. I guess there's where religion comes in, but I just can't stop believing that God created us to do something big for Him. Perhaps the book I will write in future will help in His work.

This also reminds me on how I feel about my family and religion. It's just all so messy and wrong. I asked my sister whether she was afraid to go to hell just the other day, and she scoffed at me. SCOFFED! And she said she was a Christian purely because my mother was. All that thinking about afterlife and redemption really makes me feel sick to my stomach, especially when I know how imperfect I must be and also about facing my friends and family after death. Will we be in heaven or will we be in hell? Will it be my fault? Which is why I try not to think of such depressing matters. But I do realise that one day I really must spend some time on the subject.

I can think of a thousand things I want to say. But I only can think of few ways to say it.

Strange.

3:07 AM