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Female. 17. Someone who needs this blog because - I don't always say what I mean and I don't always mean what I say. And here I let it all out. Living life and loving it. <3

Saturday, February 2, 2008

It seems that no matter what I do, something always escapes me.

I've been chosen for the Olympiad Maths competition. I'm really proud about it, as Olympiad Maths competitions are quite prestigious. However, I must first note that my maths is.. not exactly the best. Or even close. (Now that I think about it, I'm doing quite badly in a lot of things... it's okay compared to the other Singaporeans - it's the other scholars that will probably do better than me. But as I said, it's just the transition.

We have practices every fortnight on Saturday until June. This also means that I probably won't be able to go back during the March holidays, or at least; not for the entire week. The lessons on Saturdays begin from 8 to 10. This is then followed by English remedial lessons, things that every scholar is made compulsory to take by the MOE until 12. And at 2, I have to go to "True Jesus Church", a place I've still yet to feel comfortable in. I've repeatedly asked Suzanna and Yew Juan for help on that matter, but it seems that I've been completely forgotten.

I guess it's partly my responsibility to find a proper church at suits me - but they promised...! TJC is a very traditional place in which all prayers are conducted in tongues (in which people roll their tongues or growl...) and baptism is the most important key. I'm so scared of the place. For one thing, I can't speak in tongues - this will already mean that I'm 'inferior' to most of the people there. And I really don't want to pretend that I can, which would be a complete betrayal. I'm really frightened of the entire thing...

And today has been one of the worse days so far. I fell asleep in the bus, panicked, thinking I alighted from the wrong bus. I quickly got down and left the bus, forgetting to tap my EZLink card. I felt so guilty....

I got 13/20 for Lit. I feel so drained.

5:20 PM

Saturday, February 2, 2008

It seems that no matter what I do, something always escapes me.

I've been chosen for the Olympiad Maths competition. I'm really proud about it, as Olympiad Maths competitions are quite prestigious. However, I must first note that my maths is.. not exactly the best. Or even close. (Now that I think about it, I'm doing quite badly in a lot of things... it's okay compared to the other Singaporeans - it's the other scholars that will probably do better than me. But as I said, it's just the transition.

We have practices every fortnight on Saturday until June. This also means that I probably won't be able to go back during the March holidays, or at least; not for the entire week. The lessons on Saturdays begin from 8 to 10. This is then followed by English remedial lessons, things that every scholar is made compulsory to take by the MOE until 12. And at 2, I have to go to "True Jesus Church", a place I've still yet to feel comfortable in. I've repeatedly asked Suzanna and Yew Juan for help on that matter, but it seems that I've been completely forgotten.

I guess it's partly my responsibility to find a proper church at suits me - but they promised...! TJC is a very traditional place in which all prayers are conducted in tongues (in which people roll their tongues or growl...) and baptism is the most important key. I'm so scared of the place. For one thing, I can't speak in tongues - this will already mean that I'm 'inferior' to most of the people there. And I really don't want to pretend that I can, which would be a complete betrayal. I'm really frightened of the entire thing...

And today has been one of the worse days so far. I fell asleep in the bus, panicked, thinking I alighted from the wrong bus. I quickly got down and left the bus, forgetting to tap my EZLink card. I felt so guilty....

I got 13/20 for Lit. I feel so drained.

5:20 PM