C L A R I T Y

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Becca is urghamathtestonthursday=/

Never-ending Race/

*PROMOTES!*

Anyway, I'm pretty proud of myself. Haven't been online since Saturday.
My self-control's not bad, huh? =D

8:50 PM

Friday, July 24, 2009

Becca is SHOCCCCKKEEDDD.

You know the roommate I have always been griping about?
The one who's always been studying?
WELL.

She got 7 A1s.
And has a L1R5 of 6.

So.

Excuse me while I stab myself with a rusty butter knife.

2:58 PM

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Becca is self-delusional.

SO.

I am totally forgetting about Mid-Years.
Yeah, really; I am.

Amazing, I know.

Prelims should be my focus.
Heck, O levels should be my focus.

And, oh, apparently; Miss Yeo’s having a AMath test this upcoming Thursday and those who do badly will have their group leaders held responsible. Since Daryl and Zhiling “disowned” me, I hope they’re going to have creative, plausible, explanations to Miss Yeo when they’ve seen I flunked the paper so badly the reason why I couldn’t get worse was because no negative marks could be awarded.

Hm.

I should be studying.

Well, everyone in my shoes should be studying. (95 more days!!! *dies*)

But somehow, seeing people playing cards / making copious amount of noise / playing PSP/ doing random activities of which contribute nothing but chaos to the general atmosphere of the class is making me loose my motivation.

Especially because my earphones kind of committed suicide on me and the ‘heck care’ ambience I have been receiving are kinda demoralizing.

There’s a Chem test tomorrow on essay questions. I’m bracing myself already.

9:41 PM

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Okay.

Now I have to mug like mad for Prelims, to get an average increase of two grades for every subject.

This definitely calls for divine intervention.

2:21 PM

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Okay.

Mr Cheng said I shouldn't have failed.

So either Ms. Mazna hates me. Or Mr Cheng is more lenient than Ms Mazna.
I think it really is the latter considering the former doesn't even know I exist.

Apparently I have convoluted sentences that don't make sense when I rush too much. Which I totally did. Considering that I fell asleep halfway through the paper.

Note to self: MUST NOT GO TO HOUGANG PT FOR KFC DURING PRELIM IN BETWEEN PAPERS.

Anyway, I think I left my English essay in school.
Which would then make my asking of Ms Mazna what the heck went wrong impossible.
Which would then probably cause my failure of English compo once again.

Which, btw, has caused me to feel paranoid about flunking all my papers; causing me to feel very high strung when facing the prospect of E. Geo and Bio as well - of which has a high propensity for me to do horribly, considering I focused all my efforts on AMaths before the exams.

Tomorrow we're getting back Paper 1, part (i).

I'm pretty sure I failed again.

And oh, Ms. Yeo is kinda pissed with our class for our Maths. I feel kinda guilty...

7:41 PM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Becca was molested.

I kid you not.

I was ASSAULTED in Heartland Mall when I was just walking by, minding my own business. They saw a bruise on my arm, grabbed me and proceeded slathering cream on my skin. It was a guy. And the guy's hand was like half around my shoulder as he continued putting the cream on my arm.

AND HE SAID I HAD CHICKEN POX ON MY FACE. (which was why I NEEDED to buy the cream) (??????)

He was like TOUCHING ME very much....!!!!

How sick is that.

And oh, apparently I look like a gangster head/gangster head's younger sister.

8:10 AM

Friday, July 17, 2009

I failed English compo.

I think I’m really dumb wei.
It’s like the only subject I’m relatively proficient at, and I still manage to fail English compo. People who can’t even carry out a decent conversation in English are able to pass, and yet I could FAIL.

I think I totally suck.

2:42 PM

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Becca feels =////

It’s been almost two years (1.5++) since 302 has been together, and I realised that there are quite a few people I haven’t talked to yet.
Like seriously talked to.

But this year was a huge improvement from last year. I started hanging out with people I barely talked to the year before and wishing I did so earlier. It’s kind of sad now that I see that we probably won’t have long together now that we just finally, clicked; considering all of us will be splitting up - JCs, poly, even certain people in IB....

We have just a few months left together, and after that? Who knows...? I think it’s really time for me to like talk to the people I rarely talk to, just to get to know everyone a little bit better. Because when I look back at my old school; I remember a few people in class of whom I knew barely anything about. All I could do was remember labels, “the class mugger”, “the Quiet one” and so on. And I feel that that’s quite sad.

I think one of the biggest things that happened this year is that I finally learnt to understand someone I previously felt quite uncomfortable with. I thought I didn’t like her, but in all truth; I only thought so because I didn’t know her. I misunderstood everything she did, leaving me resentful and angry. But I’m really thankful this year I managed to see beyond petty jealousies and see who you really are. And sometimes, I feel really stupid for not noticing it sooner.

I’m glad I met you. You know who you are. =)

SORRY LA HUITING FOR AMATH. I RELI THOUGHT I'D FAIL.

5:38 PM

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

*officially changing tagging name to:
b e c c a
due to confusion between Becca See (no.2) and me. =(

6:06 PM

Becca is blurrrrasd

I think I'm getting lazier wei.

Because dunno somehow, I manage to sleep for like two hours for a nap, when I totally expected to nap for like 45 minutes. But I kept thinking that me waking up would be for nothing, because I had no new game to play or book to read or anything. So without any motivation I just went back to sleep.

Or maybe it's because of that bad headache I got in class because of over-stress.

And I mean it when I say over-stress.

I was so fricking scared to get back my AMath paper because I remembered that when I look at the paper I didn't know how to do a lot of questions. I was so nervous I kinda scratched at my hands when I was waiting for my name to call, and I had to distract myself my taking my scissors and cutting things up.

April suggested cutting up my test paper as post therapy. It sounded heavenly.

But...! But!

UNEXPECTEDLY, I
p
a
s
s
e
d.

I was so shocked! Granted, I mugged most for AMath; but a lot of people kept telling me that a lot of people from this class failed... or like our class had single digit passes... And I had the horrible memory of flipping the AMath exam booklet frantically finding for something I knew how to do.

I'm not joking. I DREAMT about it once.

I even bet with Sharon that I would fail. Yes, I was that prepared.

But THANK GOD.
I am 100% sure this is divine interference. There is NO WAY I could possibly do humanely well in Maths. I think Zhilling can attest to that. (=D > "oh my crap!")

HP this Friday is wishful thinking. NEXT FRIDAY THEN! (common test won't start so fast, will it???)

COMPARE AND CONTRAST

(IthinkihelookslikeKienLam)

Still, I think I should start studying now la... somehow.

5:51 PM

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Today after school was damn funny.

Cuz I accidentally took Fanye's paper and wanted to return it to her before we went for the School Quality analysis survey crap thinghy I went into 403. Then being the fantastically kind person I was, I made Priscilla and Huiting wait for all the E. History people so that they know where to go.

The thing is, we didn't know where to go either.

BUT.

Priscilla was there,

So I went, "Just follow your heart la."

AND WE REALLY MADE IT TO THE RIGHT COM LAB.

(if you're like, really slow, James was in the com lab where we needed to do the survey)

LOL.

And oh yeah, my eye seems a lottt better. The swelling is almost gone. And I can tell because Huiting doesn't squeal when she looks at my face anymore. (yes, she's THAT squeamish)

HOPEFULLY GOING TO WATCH HP AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE THIS FRIDAY.
(the only week before remedial. 0_o)
Anyone else wanna go?
NOT a class outing.

Dunno why everytime I ask people from class to go anywhere with me, it's automatically labelled a class outing... =.=!!!
(and I never get anything for being Function Head either laaaa)

8:37 PM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Took the surgery today.
Not going to school tomorrow.
Tireddd...

8:09 PM

Friday, July 10, 2009

Becca is shocked.

I learnt that my TWELVE YEAR OLD SIS uses the curse "holy shit" in many colourful variations when she gets angry.

Right.

I feel like I need to study somehow. (Cuz I’m pretty sure I flunked AMath) But I just can't summon the willpower, even though it seems like everybody BUT me is mugging; especially when I'm cooped out with my roommates.

You know the Cheer Up T that everyone seems to be buying? The very same one that I have been insulting and calling its buyers boring trend-followers? Well, I bought it too.

Not because I like it, of course. But mainly because it would be something that all the M'sian scholars wear whenever we go out; which I think it's kinda cool - although the sense of identity is lost considering the rest of the world wears the same thing.

Oh, going to JB tomorrow for eye check-up. =/

4:34 PM

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Becca misses home most on birthdays.

Yeah.
That's all to it.
This is the second year in the row where I have quite a sucky birthday.
God knows I should have learnt not to expect much.

5:21 PM

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Whoever who said hostel is a conducive place to study is WRONG.
Because we have roommates.
And we have to adhere to whatever our roommates want.

And my roommate wants to SLEEP. And sleep. And sleep.

And she sleeps all the time I'm AWAKE. Like from 5 onwards until like 9 or 10. Then she wakes up and studies until God knows what time and she sleeps again. This is fricking annoying, because those times are actually the period of time where I try to finish my homework. But I can't. Because the light is OFF. And my table lamp, already admittedly much bigger than the one supplied by the hostel; considering it's my own, DOES NOT HELP MUCH.

So I spent all my time squinting whenever I want to do something, leaving me pissed and deciding to play computer (which emits its own light) instead.

Study hall? You must be joking.

It's a vision of normal people hell. You see people camping out with their table lamps/pajamas/teddy bears/blankets there mugging their brains out. And you constantly have to go back to your room to get material, which is really annoying. The only thing that probably is fine is the computer room, as it has air conditioners; BUT it's always crowded.

So.

During the study break I'm seriously going to have to GET OUT OF THE HOSTEL and STUDY SOMEWHERE ELSE before I SPONTANEOUSLY IMPLODE.

7:13 PM

Becca is much freaked out.

In my defense,
I DON'T REMEMBER WHEN I SAID I DRANK BEER.
But really.

I guess the only possible time I probably drank beer was in 2007, when I went to Keith's house with the gang for some pot luck-post PMR party; of which nobody brought any staple food except me. So we had like tonnes of junk food and stuff, but no real dishes, except for fried rice. And lots and lots of prawn crackers > lols at Bryan.

Anyway, Mr. Chew; if you're going to read my blog and all; would you PLEASE not mention it in front of the entire class?

If I'm not wrong, the beer tasted like crap.

So anyway,

The stupid cancerous tumor looking thing on my eye seemed to have engorged.

Dammit.

3:43 PM

Monday, July 6, 2009

Becca hates chem.

Today I:
1. went to see a doctor
2. was told that i went a little too late
3. and that my swelling in my eye might be permanent
4. unless I go for an operation

Today I also:
1. went to the cheng san library
2. without wearing glasses/contacts
3. and wasted one and a half hours
4. looking for fantasy books that only seemed to exist as the second
5. in a trilogy

Today I also:
1. went to a gathering
2. of which involved almost all of '08 batch m'sian scholars
3. and listened to all the senior guys joking
4. about camille and zhehan's love life
5. in chinese
6. and was duly reminded
7. why i don't hang out as much with them

Today I also
1. was freaked out in the train
2. by yee teng who had an asthma attack
3. causing everyone in immediate vicinty (including uncles and aunties)
4. trying to force me to press the emergency button
5. and get some help
6. like a cheap B-grade movie.

Today I also
1. tried repeatedly to get yt out of the train
2. to get some fresh air without being crowded around
3. but was refused
4. leaving me continuously freaked out.

Today I also
1. called yt's mother
2. stunned when she asked me, "so how?"
3. freaked out some more
4. when she had a relapse

Today I am also now
1. waiting for eeone and april to bring yt back from the clinic.
2. thinking that chem sucks, at least, anderson chem papers.

8:54 PM

I had two stupidly long posts that were both deleted because I GOT DISCONNECTED. SUPER PISSED NOW.

Here's the gist of it....

1. I have to go see an optometrist.
2. I watched tonnes of movies the past few days.
3. Ghost of Girlfriend’s Past was nice, nothing special - a feel good movie.
4. I braved thunder, lightning and torrents of rain to eat tong sui
5. At Heartland Mall where I almost freezed to death
6. Because even my short shorts were saturated with water and my legs covered with blades of grass and splatters of mud
7. Due to certain stupid people who insisted on stampeding through all puddles
8. Of whom are named Camille and Ee One

-END-

9:44 AM

Friday, July 3, 2009

And God said: "Let this blog live."

And the blog lived, and it was good.

And there was evening, and there was morning, the end of the first day.

So yeah, my blog's alive again.
I'm supersupersuper impressed I refrained from blogging the entire week, considering I had so much to destress about, AMATH paper in particular, which I think was designed to torture me into submission.

(I'M SORRY MS YEO.)

Papers DIED: EGeo, Chem, Physics, Bio, EMaths
Papers _DIED_!: ELit, AMaths

And when I say _DIED_! I mean _DIED_! Because, I didn't finish the last two essays for Lit and my Amaths paper, I didn't know how to do, like half.

Anyway, instead of talking about depressing stuff (of which I shall label as worksheets to make myself feel tonnes better), today went out to AMK Hub to watch Transformers 2.

For those who haven't watched Transformers 1, please don't watch Transformers 2. You won't get half the references made. Serious. Characters I thought were kinda minor reappeared again, which was a good thing because I thought the commander-soldier-guy was cool. The blonde-ish haired one. Megan Fox was as hot as ever. Other than that and trillions of fantastic cg that made my eyes hurt when the decepticons and autobots transformed from their respective it wasn't all that great. Storyline, I mean.

For one thing, the old secret hidden the the Pyramids of Ancient Egypt thing was a tad overdone, considering that so many other movies were based on the same thing. The other, the camera panning? A headache. They kept revolving the camera 360 degrees everytime there was a conversation for effect, doing nothing but making it look kinda cliche. Also, you could really tell that they were relying on Megan Fox's hot-ness to kept the movie interesting, a.k.a. strategic shots to her body. Kinda depressing considering I really liked Transformers 1.

I think some of the girls didn't like it at all, especially Huiting. =.= Which is no surprise since they didn't watch Transformers 1 and most of the things didn't make sense and because the show was made up of 50% fighting/violence. (which I didn't mind, kudos to special effects!)

Anyway, next movie to watch, GHOST OF GIRLFRIENDS PAST. Or THE PROPOSAL.
Which is Comedy/Romance, if that isn't obvious enough. If certain people (>_<) still can't take it; we're going to have to watch Dora the Explorer or something.

*cookies to Megan Fox for keeping her white pants white eventhough there's sand, blood and mayhem everywhere, and her hair ever gorgeous even through deaths of various organisms.

PS: WHY.

10:23 PM