Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I feel like I'm the poster child for blurness nowadays.
It seems as if any semblance of intelligence has been sucked out of me after O levels and has proceeded to leave me into a catatonic vegetable-like state of which any modicum of human intellect is absent.
For one thing, it shows in the way I have to read things twice to actually get something. I scan through words, as I always do; go "huh? does it say THAT?" and read again just to understand it properly. Even then, five seconds later the words disappear from my mind, much like the same way a luscious bar of chocolate is golfed down by a hungry six year old.
Like the Copenhagen summit on the environment? It took me THREE times to remember the name, much less spell it correctly. And I read quite a few articles on it.
Aside that, my attention span, previously already rather inferior in size has shrunk to the size of a peanut and is steadily growing smaller by the second. I keep thinking of other things as I do other things. Like now, I kinda feel like I should turn on the radio and grab something to eat and load a movie and call someone all simultaneously at the same time.
Huh, the urge is gone.
I think I'm psychologically damaged, as of now; the result of going out to often/worrying about results/sleeping & eating too much.
Awesome.
And since this blog allows my archive to be readily accessed, I feel kinda depressed when I read my posts from previous years. They seem so much more entertaining/witty than the ones I'm writing now, which consists of a bare few lines. I also feel like I've been having too much fun recently, going out every single bloody day; something I have NEVER done before my friends could all drive. NOT productive at all.
I suppose it wouldn't make a difference if I stayed at home. I'd probably get addicted to some new online game and play until my eyeballs fall out from their sockets from overuse. Which seems to happen quite often. Not the eyeball thing, the addiction thing. Still, I would have read more often, considering I haven't read a book in over a WEEK (horrors!) since it's impolite to bring a book with me when I go out with my friends; basically sending subliminal messages that I think that they'll probably bore me to death before they actually attempt to do so.
(*cough* dota @ genting *cough*)
But anyway, I really had tonnes of fun, and since it's pre-college; of which everyone's going their separate ways and all, I think it should be okay.
At least I hope so.
9:22 AM
